Lies and regret

"So it is final, i had a word with my mom and can not take this relation further, its for your happiness. Trust me its good for both of us."

"Please understand we will make them understand and i never noticed that whenever i met your mom"

"why will share with you as she knows i like you and will not hear anything against you, so told me now"

"Please do something, i can not stay without you, you are the only one i care for in this world"

"I wish i could something but sorry but we can not take it further"

The above conversation may sound like the Boy and the girl are breaking up because of the boy's family, but the reality was something else. The boy was a flirt, free, not good with commitment be it family, friends or the love. The girl was strong with her word and she was immensely in love with the boy.

To let you know the boy was me and the girl was the one whom i will never forget in my life and will never forgive myself for the mistake i did on that day. 

I left her, i lied to her just for the sake of my happiness and to get rid of the commitments with her. She was a scholar( kind of ), beautiful, charming and most of so talkative. I could have spent my whole nine births if i would have understood her importance at that time. 

Its true, you only realize the importance of a thing when you loose that. 

Lets get back to the story, she tried a lot to come back but i ignored her and when i recall the way i did it, i feel pity and like a sinner. I was busy with other girls,just for the sake of my idiotic crushes and attraction i lost her completely. 

After trying a lot she stopped it and i was normal as she was no more TROUBLING me. 

I still can not believe i was so inhuman, she got in touch with a guy, they were in same school and they were acquaintance. 

Now it has been around 6 years, i have been into various relationships and am settled for last 3 years with a girl, she is sweet and i can not loose her, but that girl is still with the same boy and planning to get married. 

I tried a lot in last few years to get her back but all failed as till then she knew that i cheated her for other girls and as i lied to her with the reason for the break up.

I am still into relationship but wish to get her back in my life and can promise not to let her go ever from my life.

I know that this can not be real as she will not be back but still i wish....